Hhaaaayyyy BUHAY!!!!!
How am I? How has life been treating me? Life has been going on as it should. On the surface it may seem it is great…. I have friends who love me and who I love. But still my heart is NUMB! I long to do things I have been dreaming of doing. But it is not yet time… so says mi BIG BOSS. It is great to be back home but a lot of questions still haunt me.
I do know that in HIS time, things will be in place. I do know too that what HE is making me go through now is HIS way of molding me into a better person. As one of my mentors (whom we fondly call Nanay) in school emailed me last July, it is God’s way of prunning and trimming me. Yes Nanay, it sure is!!!! All these are happening for a reason and I do know that in HIS TIME, things will fall into place and it will be great! When this time will be I do not know. I will just have to wait patiently, live one day at a time and claim this when the time comes.
I remember my prayers last June where more on questions and asking for strength to hurdle the "crisis" I was in. I asked that he take away the heaviness in my heart… BUT HE DID NOT. Day by day I learned to lift evrything up to HIM, live with it and accept it and things felt better over time. I went through more hurdles but I survived it. HE instead gave me the strength to go on with faith and acceptance. Let go and surrender everything to HIM…
Sincerity is a strong pain-killing drug.
Humility is a stronger pain-killing drug.
Self-offering is the strongest pain-killing drug.
Sri Chinmoy
October 10th, 2006 at 8:00 pm
i definitely agree with you. it’s quite frustrating at times that i tend to question HIM up there, but when things fall into place, that’s when i see HIS reasons.